yiting aka LAYLA ♥
19 June 199o
ad2 class of 'o8
ガゼット the GazettE (esp Uruha ♥)
摩天楼オペラ Matenrou Opera (esp You ♥)
Artsy Fartsy stuff
Good A Level Results (: Favourable TIP Assessment new ipod (:
how about losing even more weight
a sheltie puppy
more shoes! a new bag! or bagssss. (:
NANA Rocking Horse Boots
Westlife: Back Home Album
10 Years of Westlife DVD
Westlife: Greatest Hits Tour DVD
anything that is not in my discography collection yet Trip to Japan (: Watch the GazettE live (: HERESY Membership (:
Sony Ericsson SATIO or
A DOCOMO!! P-Series esp! a DEALDESIGN accessory (:
Master my Japanese
Sorry (to maine and benkee!) for the lack of updates. I've been trying to tune back my bodyclock (with little success, but there are improvements!) and i've been spending alot of time watching anime / re-watching old anime. Since the last update, I've finished watching La Corda D'oro (my new fave reverse harem! talk abt it later), Flame of Recca and Ayashi no Ceres (which i'm proud to say i've finished watching the whole series in one night HAHA). Downloading more anime to watch hoho.
La Corda D'Oro. LOOK! mega cute guys. HAHA! ok la this pic is not awesome, but i chose it cos i hafta show the whole cast right? The plot is actually rather shallow. It's about this girl who got this magical violin. But since it's a reverse-harem anime, what really matters is the GUYS. that's why all the guys are drawn to be very pretty/hot/cute etc.
sidenote: Reverse-Harem - basically it refers to a genre for manga/anime where there is one female protagonist and surrounded by 2 or more guys, and develops romantically with each of them substantially that no matter which guy she eventually ends up with will still make sense. Really just a matter of who you like more. Some authors leave it hanging, up for the fans to fight it out to decide who they prefer the female lead to be with. the opposite applies for Harem (one male, many females)
Well, la corda (despite it's not very developed concept) made me love the show so much because i've always been attracted to this "music is the voice of emotion" stuff. It reminded me of how i loved music and wanted to pick up an instrument since young, but was not allowed to. Now i'm determined to try again!
The manga is still ongoing, while a season 2 is just being aired recently, featuring this new guy in the show called Kaji Aoi (WHO IS MEGA CUTE!!!!). I haven't caught season 2 so i don't know. but i've seen him in the manga. Look:
drools. The mega-cool thing about him is i love his ear piercings (HAHA! actually nothing special but it looks ultra good on him)
My favourite piece currently: Ave Maria on violin duet. Can't find a better video, but i loved how Len(the guy) played Ave Maria here. It is so gentle and emotional, different from his usual precise and powerful brillance. Awesome shit. Must be the emotional side he is devloping with Hino (the girl). aiyo.
I went out with Fanny on tuesday and we had a good time just chatting and catching up (it's been a whole year plus since i've last saw her). Then i met tay fo free ben and jerry's at vivo and she gave me a mega awesome surprise. HAHA. aiyo tayyyyy. thanks alot ah. HAHA!
I've been sleeping a hell lot too. till my mum asked me today why am i sleeping so much (when she finds me sleeping 12hours very normal... so you can imagine how much i've been sleeping). Haha, i guess it's a good thing. makes time pass faster. my brother's gonna be back soooooooon. less than a week! YAY.
A HYMN OF THE CRUCIFIXION - 1:19 PM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Things Are Not Getting Better.
sometimes when you're going downhill, you don't know when you'll reach the bottom do you? things just keep going downwards, you sometimes wonder if there's even a stop to it. when is the roller coaster going up again? or has it come to an end?
Before posting the previous post, I received a piece of news from my sister about my family. It came for a shock for sure, but it didn't bother me that much. After posting the previous entry, i continued to behave normally, until around dawn, when my sister refused to go to school again, the news started to sink in, and I felt the fear within me.
This is affecting my whole family. It has put tremendous stress on me again. It feels like I'm returning to the start of how all these happened. The worst thing about it is that I cannot cry; I cannot show that I am weak. My sisters depend on me, I cannot fall.
And with the accumulation of personal problems I am feeling, when the news sank in, i lost faith in the magical thing called love for quite a while. I lost every single drop of respect for the males on Earth for a while too. I swear i hated men when i felt the news get into me. But then again, I do not think as a woman I felt any better. Every humans' hands are dirty. Yes, that's the thought.
I voiced my desperation of needing (NEED, not want) my brother back asap to a few friends after that. I need a tranquilliser, and I figured only two people in the world has the ability to do that to me now. However, one's overseas; the other too busy to meet me... I decided to sleep alot, hoping time will pass faster and my brother will be back before I give in and break down to this mental stress.
While sleeping away, I received a message from Jerrold. It made me feel so much better. Someone actually realised my existence. I felt important for a minute, and went back to sleep. I slept much better after that. I woke up and told myself, I should just ignore the problem now, and try and pick myself up. I need to be in one piece to actually tell someone about it anyway.
So i continued laughing, and faced the world.
p/s: Thank you to those who raised their concern about me, I really appreciate it. But I'm sorry, I don't feel that I'm able to actually tell you guys what that piece of news is until I've come to accept it myself, which I believe it'll only happen when I meet one of the 2 parties I've mentioned above that are able to act as stabilisers. I can only imagine myself telling them about it first and allow them to put me in the right frame of mind, or at least get my emotions within controlled. It is very difficult for me now, but I'll take care of myself.
A HYMN OF THE CRUCIFIXION - 9:18 PM
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Bye Brother + Like A Band Gig + Uniqlo + Depression
i had 3 days of non-stop action packed days. HAHA. didn't sleep on thursday and friday night. Was at emaine's place. both of us went to send my brother and jackvic off at the airport on saturday. slept at like, maybe 2am or something i can't remember, and headed off to tampines on sunday afternoon. joined in the Uniqlo shopping craze, i got myself quite a number of apparel. shirts, polo, skirt, belt, jacket...
Rushed to bugis to meet tay for yang ge's band's gig. awesome psychedelic, electronic music in the house that day! officially got labelled as Like A Band's No. 2 fan. Went home after that, but didn't sleep till 6am. Oh god.
I miss my brotherrrr. please come back in one piece. Don't use needles poke too many divers. When you come back, I want to give you a hug again. :( -----
some stuff's making me depressed. Officially feeling down again. worse still, my brother and jackvic's not around.. no one to make me feel better about the problems.
I know what i want. It's just what i want can't be mine. So what to do? Trying to move on, but...
A HYMN OF THE CRUCIFIXION - 1:27 AM
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Pre-Taiwan Outing and Rich Lemmings
Hi all, i'm back again. My body clock's screwed. i've been sleeping at the weirdest times like 11ams and 2pms and 8ams. But oh well. It's not killing me. I'm just talking to people and meeting people at the strangest times more often.
Tuesday was quite a day for me! I went for my MOE Teaching Scholarship Interview... and I believe i did not do my best. There were questions that left me stunned for awhile, or i got lost in the middle of my sentences and did not know how to continue. Sigh. But it's over, I just hope i didn't fare too badly. After the interview I rushed home for a change of clothes before meeting Jackvic.
Met Jackvic at Heeren, then went over to have Sakura Buffet. After awhile my brother and his friend + gf arrived (made new friends! haha). Yup. so it was me, jackvic, alan, ben and michele. I didn't eat alot that day... I was very thirsty though. Something's wrong with me D: I think i was abit annoying that day. i disturbed everyone for douhua. and there are moments i felt that i wasn't myself. ugh. the past few days before tuesday ate me up. (side note: I was re-watching NANA during those sleepless nights, talk about that later). We went to play Wii after that, then jackvic wasn't feeling well, so ben michele and jackvic went home first. brother accompanied me to have douhua :D talked alot. hahaha. ahh.
Well.. I've been watching Nana again. and cried like almost every episode. there's bound to be something that hits something in me that i will just start crying. Every episode makes me feel intensely for it. There are times i could feel my heart pounding so hard and fast; there are times where just a sentence, or a scene that made all my hair stand as if i felt a spark for it. I feel every emotion they tried to talk about... It scares me, but it makes me feel that i'm not alone. If someone can portray what I deemed as unspeakable out, then i must not be the only one feeling it. It makes me feel more comforted.
Bloody hell, i need money. MONEY! I'm dying to get my hands on that Golden Orb Watch Pendant from Vivenne Westwood. I've lemmed for it for the longest time!!! YEARS! aaaaaaaah! I want it i want it i want it! btw that golden watch orb costs 190pounds HAHAHA!! Meanwhile, i shall wear my silver orb. It's been awhile since i took it out to wear it. :)
Brother and co flying off to Taiwan on Saturday... take care you guys! i will miss all of you! no late nights out and fun for 2weeks plus :(
A HYMN OF THE CRUCIFIXION - 6:45 PM
Friday, April 3, 2009
Rekindled Love for Westlife
I found the fan page for Westlife on Facebook a few days back. And finally got myself clicking into their official website again after 2 years. Gosh, how nostalgic. I heard their "new" (new to me! cos it's actually out i think last year or even 2007 i dono) single "Home" and i am reminded of how much i loved this boy band. They sound just as great as previously (although Bryan's missing...) Oh, "Home" is actually their cover of Michael Buble's.
and so.. yes! my love for Westlife has rekindled. Ahh. Gonna be spinning their albums these few days.
and yes! Westlife has been around for a decade! After so many smashing singles and platinum awards and chart-toppers. They're still around and there are people who are still lovin' them (like me)
okay. the above pictures are what i'm lacking of in my Westlife collection. These were released when i was still being drowned in stacks and stacks of lecture notes and tutorials. Oh, how i miss them so much! *Puts all the above into wishlist!*
Note to my brother: WESTLIFE LEH. so nostalgic. not for the music only. *hints hints :D
someone remind me how nicky is just bloody hell good-looking like always (AND HE LOOKS MORE AND MORE LIKE BECKHAM AS HE GETS OLDER) and how kian is just goddamn blessed with such beautiful features he's my favourite poster boy! and how shane's voice is to die for..... sorry i never fancied Mark hahahha! but his voice is unique too. you can always tell it's him. AHHH. *swoons and falls head over heels like a little girl*