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yiting aka LAYLA ♥
nineteen
19 June 199o
anglo-chinese JC
ad2 class of 'o8
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Hey readers... i'm back.

well i didn't disappear to anywhere. just didn't really blog after that frenzy of posting so many gazette-related posts straight within a period of like one or two days. i went on with my normal life as usual, tutoring and then resting and stuff.

well ytd i had a day off from tutoring and i sorta cleaned up my room. well it's all done now, except my closet which i'm dying to clean because it is in such a BIG MESS - i'm so going to clean it tmr cos i'm free. while i was cleaning... i found fragments of *stuff* lying around and can't help but start thinking again. it's not like i haven't learnt or got used to being alone again or whatever - i always enjoyed my space. maybe it was how everything ended. without a proper closure on my part makes things extremely... nostalgic? not really the exact feeling.. cos i had a negative connotation to what i felt. mm... maybe i just felt like i wanted someone to be here with me.

i think i got used to things lying around... not noticing it. but when i picked them up again i was like, should i just throw it away? should i return it? does he still want all these etc... it was as if i was deciding on smth that will change my life. that kind of major decision kinda feeling. and then while i made it relatively easy and calm to come to terms with it, i looked at my closet and realised i have so many more items i had to look at and deal with. and before i knew it i started tearing.

well.. it was quite a bit of an internal emotional struggle in me. but after awhile i think i slowly let it go while i continue cleaning up my room. then sarah came to stayover cos she needed my help with her assignment. So i kinda got distracted... and didn't really harp on it too much. i srsly had lots of thoughts running through my head... but the distraction was good. it got it off, and now even as i wanna blog abt it there are many things i cannot recall.

well as for today, i only slept 2hours odd cos i only slept at 8am. woke up @ 10 30am when sarah had to leave. pulled myself up for Jap class - yes i'm back in Jap class! taking ele2 now~ was given the Katakana table, and the first thing i did was search for "RU" and "KI" and hoho, of cos it looks like Ruki's name (like duh). then i was so amused i went on to scribble ルキ (Ruki) all over my paper. LOL. well Takatsuka sensei... i think he was abit disappointed or frustrated? cos many of us cannot remember what we have learnt previously. our answers were all in pieces and stuff. and the lesson proceeded at such a pace that it was pretty tiring to just keep up with the speed. I gotta take some time off to study Japanese properly.

Well i've many things running in my head recently... since the cleaning up. i leave you with this verse from the song, Miseinen　（未成年） by the GazettE. i know i've just been screaming and filling this blog with fangirlism, but now it's time to show you that their lyrics and meaning, do speak of emotions that i, as an average human, can feel so much for. i think such actions speak louder than words. i can scream i love gazette a thousand times and see no one feel anything, while it'll mean something to people around me when i hear the verse below and just tear.


the GazettE - 未成年

強がってばかりじゃ本当の顔忘れちゃうから
Acting strong will just make you forget your real face so,
たまに力を抜いて誰かに頼る事も大事です
It's important to extract power and depend on someone once in a while.
傷付いて…泣きたい時は大空に向かって大声で叫んでみて
Being wounded, being injured, being hurt; During the times when you want to cry, face the vast sky and cry out as loud as you can.

I don't want forget to myself
I want to be as I am ..

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last note: i think i don't need to hide anything on the other side anymore. what i want to say will be here, and what i don't feel like saying shall be left unsaid. i've learnt how to speak what i want to say with everyone watching me. even if i don't get what i want or what i idealised, at least i'm not losing myself.

for this, ガゼット、　ありがと。 (gazette, thank you.)

A HYMN OF THE CRUCIFIXION - 12:41 AM