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19 June 199o
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okay, i am going to blog in a more serious tone today. it's still about the gazette, if you friends are wondering. but some things happened today that struck me so i had to say this once and for all. so if you have some regard for me, please read it, and watch the 10min clip at the end.

i know most of you reading this knows my craze for the gazette. i knew from the beginning it will not be easily accepted, i would hear comments that i do not want to hear. some of you accepted that, and you know, have the thought "ah, it'll die over soon" or "u know she'll craze and after awhile it's okay" and i'm glad some of you despite my constant raves about them chose to accept that i have taken an interest in them and respected my choice. whether it will go away or not is another issue. but i thank you for giving me the respect for me to like what i want.

but today, altho it might be a joke, and i heard it a number of times from other people, but it was hurtful for me. Yes, i know. whenever i show photos of Uruha, or when people happen to see my desktop wallpaper, they ask me who the hell is he. "omg he looks like a tranny", "omg why he looks like that is he gay?" etc etc etc. I agree, Uruha can look very feminine. he has such delicate features. but that is the exact same reasons why i admire him. i admire his beauty... sometimes even believing i cannot look as beautiful as him, even when i am female. But i admire his masculine features as well. It is exactly because he has both within him at the same time, i admire him, i envy him, and i lust. honestly, i do. i sometimes cannot help it but think to myself, "how can such a man exist. it's such a punishment to us females?". I remember the first time i watched him play the guitar as well. I didn't know what i was feeling, i just kept staring at him. and his solo just kept repeating in my head.

this doesn't apply to just him... for the rest of the members as well. i admire different aspects of each and everyone of them (yes all of them including kai and aoi altho i do not talk about them as much). and the more i read of their background, and find out about their personality, the more i respect them. this craze may have started out as just some fangirl-screaming kind of thing. but now it has grown and i honestly in my heart admire and respect them for their hard work and determination. How Ruki was once 'disowned' by his father, how Aoi just quitted middle sch half a year before graduation, packed his bag and left for Tokyo with only him and his guitar, how Kai made his own drum set using just magazine and make-do furniture, quitted school and was determined to practise every single day for one whole year.. how uruha self-taught himself guitar to where he is today, and yet still says "somewhere in me.. i still do not see myself as a pro-musician" and how Reita worked his way up to becoming one of the most admired bassist in the VK scene.

i will never have the guts to do what they've done. Not going through the conventional way, working hard to where they are today. They were that determined even when they were in middle school (that's like 12-15yrs old). when i read about how much they went through as a band, i admire them for their guts and tough determination. i will never have enough courage to give up what is the norm.

I'm sure everyone of you out there have something or some person you admire... and you can say other bands worked hard too! yes i agree. i'm not trying to say other people did not work as hard... it's just that i love their music and they influence me. hence i admire them, i enjoy their art, i enjoy their sound, their music. And even up till today they are so humble of their achievements, and even they are amazed at themselves. It's so good to have dreams so clear in front of you, isn't it. i never remembered having such clear goals and dreams of my future from such a young age.

I felt really hurt and alone when no one understood what i felt for them. i bury myself in online communities that gathers their fans but it is sometimes hard for me when i have no one around me physically to share this passion with. and today i don't know what got into me and i really felt saddened. and just randomly after that i found this video, english subbed. it was Ruki speaking at the end of their final concert for their Nameless Liberty Six Guns tour. the band faced some criticism in the middle of the tour, and fans were abit worried. Please watch this video, altho i know he stuttered alot. This is what he had to say to the fans.



I was really touched, and i really wanted to cry (i would have cried if i wasn't outside of my home). This is exactly how i feel. It is not about their fame, or their status. I really, just purely, love their music. This is just how much, i wish to be part of that big 'invisible' family, where we all gather in one place just to listen to their music and enjoy it. i remember the first time i actually listened to their songs... the music kept lingering in my head. i still remember which song was it - Cassis. then it was Reila. it kept lingering... and that was when i knew, this is my new found love. and the song list just grew longer and longer.

After watching that video i didn't really feel that lonely anymore. But all i wish to ask for is that i do want to have a choice in what i want to believe in and love. and for you all to respect me. I wish my passion for them can go on for a very long time. Even if one day the craze dies down, i will remember them for life. Their music brought a turning point into my life. Their sound and lyrics changed and opened up many perspectives and thoughts i have about the world and myself (i know this sounds weird but yes, alot of my thinking has changed rapidly and many things has been happening around me but i don't wish to blog such things in my blog sometimes). Everytime i find the feeling or emotion behind the song or lyrics i am reminded how they are just as human as i am as well. For all that, i truly thank them. When my craze dies down, when i no longer hear the sound of those strings, drums or Ruki's voice in my heart lingering (if this ever happens), i will still remember how they sounded like. and how they made me laugh, smile and cry.

if you don't like them, i'm fine. I just want to enjoy them. and so please. just let me enjoy and savour every moment.

Gazerock is not dead, at least to me.

A HYMN OF THE CRUCIFIXION - 12:00 AM